Don't let me down

I have my moments when I think I hate you, where my life would be so much more better off without you.  I'd rather be alone then feel such frustration.  I have days, where I never want to hear your name spoken to me again, or hear my name roll out of your mouth.  These are the days, that I can't stand you, and cry...and weep and wonder what it is I want in life, in general. You are the most stubborn person I've ever met, besides myself, and it drives me absolutely out of my mind.

But more often, then those times...I can't wait to hear from you again, to hug your neck, see your face, sit next to you watching T.V., have conversations,to hear you say you love me again,  have coffee in the mornings, order in, sit quietly...reading, make a plan, learn about your life, what you want, what you used to dream of, what you still do dream for. Laugh at inside jokes.  And these are the days that out-weigh the bad, and make everything okay.  And make me believe in you, and love, and life, and kindness, and strength, and forgiveness, and peace.

As much as you drive me ape shit, pulling my hair out of my head, red faced insane, I still go crazy for you each time you walk in through the door.